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ShiloThin
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Name: Call me Baby
Gender: Female
Interests: Serial killers, dance, clothes, music, video games, the human mind, acting, tattoos, piercings, reading etc
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5/15/2009
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| Yesterday I ate only a few blue berries, I never count my liquids, so I think I better increase slightly my food intake with some liquid stuff, like Dan active, or healthy meals. I didn't eat at all at nigh and did 30mins of work out on my Wii Fit. I love it! It calculates everything. But due to my back,hip bone/arms slight dislocating I suck on my right side I think of Yoga. lol, oh well. My balance is off there...Or is it my left? Idk. I weighed myself this morning. Went from 122lbs from a few days ago to 118.6lbs... It's a start.
I want to get all dolled up and snap few pictures for my facebook, but I have no motivation there. I will put on make up, nice outfit changes-maybe, and who will take my photo? Me I guess...
Be safe everyone:)
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| I don't eat during the day. Idk y, I am not hungry or the hunger pains I ignore cos I don't feel like eating. So last night I binged on a lean cuisine and Triple chocolate satin cake. I don't work out. I wanna scream. If I purge, I may die at that scene. Plus the meds for my stomach will come up, plus so loud. I can't walk in my neighborhood too many shootings now, yes killings, gang wars are out of control. I just was doing leg lifts at night a bit cooler, but my hip bone is slightley sislocated and no money for my chiroprator, so I take Tylenol or Tyleonl #3s to numb the pain. But it is affecting my back arms and legs that was smashed in the car wreck. So I stopped. Any motivation for work outs I can do in doors? I use to be so determined and now I can't do athing. Might be my depression, I just need a push.
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| Yea sounds messed up. But I was thinking about it for a bit. We ed victims and serial killers have some things in common. Though we hurt ourselves. I mean most serial killers grew up in horrid homes, but so have many ed victims. Now not everyone who has grown up in a unstable environment do not become serial killers or suffer from ed. I know some ppl who grew up in such a horrid life, I am surprised they are not, but happy. Now both ed victims and serial killers are intelligent. Perfectionism is a must on both our half's. Also some are sicker than other's. Some have skitzopheria, which gets them caught sooner b/c they lose it and want this to be right, perfect and don't care if they get caught. While some can go for 20 years w/o getting caught right? Sorta reminds me of bulimia and anorexia. I mean bulimics go on longer w/o notice which saddens me. I feel for u girls. I am more anorexic, I have been toldfinally if I purge anymore I am basically playing Russian Roulette. I don't wanna die purging. So I binge and starve it off. I haven't purged for over 3 months. Now I am losing my thought. Idk I think I will stop 4 now with my theory. Though I hate myself heaps! Since that night for those who remember where I ended up in the ER for the panick attack that lasted over 24hrs, I have been eating at night. I have no apetite during the day. Even the hunger pains, idw eat. So b4 bed I usually eat 2 pogo stcks with tons of ketchup. And sometimes a cheese sandwich. How can I curve this? I ate today at Mcdonalds, a big mac, fries and Iced tea. I am still full. I wont eat tonight. Just fruit here n there. My sleeping pills make me hungry. So idk if I am binging, but I am not losing weight. I am 122lbs....I need to organize and finally clean my room. Putting away my small clothes n size 0 is killing me. I won't even buy new clothes for this body I have. It is flabby n gross. My mom bought me Wii Fit.I can't wait to use it but my OCD makes it that my room has to be spotless. I need some help. Thispo is not for me. I NEVER have tiny thighs they are always huge. Idk how girls get those imaculate thighs. Idk any advice or encouragemnet? Or feedback on my half ass theory?
 
Me nowadays..... I will take better ones, but not too revealing b/c I hate my new weight....:'(
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| This MAY be triggering for some, but I think they did an amazing job on kinda summing up an ed. Here are two scary videos...
Yes we have all seen Courage by Superchick, but this one is anti ana...Also I can't find atm the other freaky video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhvhIzIRuSQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dL7WPylAd5E
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n9eDpqPLz_A
Found it, so watch all 3...Really opened up my eyes. Hard to explain cos Just watch them...Especial the one called "Ana" They are all good/sad powerful, but that one it;s like they spied on me...
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